My name is Snake (for anonymity's sake). I have come to the harsh conclusion that the fetish I have followed for years (and lurked upon) is but a rich man's fetish. Me being me, and being clinically retarded, the only thing I have going for me is a disability pension. Sure, it's nice having the Man help you out every month, but I, myself, am not necessarily a 'Man' amongst those 'Men'. You see, the only thing I can do with my monthly income is pay rent, eat food and keep warm. The chances of me holding down a job, given my mental condition, are slim to none (I don't deal with apathy, AT ALL...). The sad thing is, there are times when I wish to rise above my mental state, but just can't find the capacity to do so. In that negligence, I have accepted my circumstances, and have tried so hard and for so long to make the most out of it. Years ago, things were a lot more simpler (there wasn't as much apathy in the world, I find). But now it seems that everything I try to do within my mental and financial boundaries is just a waste of time and effort. All the free-streaming videos I find are 'private' or inaccessible, uTorrent and BitTorrent both won't work on my laptop PC, and as for ordering videos, a credit card is JUST beyond my financial capability. Essentially, I'm trapped in a corner like Pink Floyd's 'The Wall', and I feel just as crazy as Pink.
So, without further adieu, I bid you all a warm farewell. At least I have the forum record of lurking! Maybe one day, in a year or so, there will be a reason for me to return to this fetish. Who knows? Maybe there's a girl somewhere out there for me, who has enough sympathy to endure the likeliness of a 'special' guy like me.
Take care, fellow fetishists,
SnakeLogan
So, without further adieu, I bid you all a warm farewell. At least I have the forum record of lurking! Maybe one day, in a year or so, there will be a reason for me to return to this fetish. Who knows? Maybe there's a girl somewhere out there for me, who has enough sympathy to endure the likeliness of a 'special' guy like me.
Take care, fellow fetishists,
SnakeLogan
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